Principles in the Spirit

At fellowship, we had a discussion about ethics. As the discussion turned to concrete examples, someone brought up abortion. They were of the opinion that it is impermissible for people to justify abortion by reason of their child carrying a genetic mutation.

His argument was essentially this: Society may find it permissible to terminate a pregnancy where the child is carrying Down Syndrome. However, society does not find it permissible to terminate a pregnancy because the child is a girl. Down Syndrome (trisomy 21) is simply the presence of an extra chromosome. Female gender (XX) is also genetically determined. If it is not permissible to terminate the latter, then our rules should be robust enough so as not to permit the former.

Now let me begin by reiterating that I do not support abortion. I personally am against it and would not participate in it myself. That said, the aforementioned argument is flawed a number of levels. First of all, Down Syndrome and female gender are not comparable. One is a healthy and natural outcome and the other is a disorder with defined pathology. Even intuitively, we can detect there is a flaw in this logic, though we may not be able to define it immediately.

Second of all, in two different circumstances the same reason can be given, and yet the outcome may be different. There are absolute rules, yes. But not all rules are that robust, nor need they be. For instance, a poor person who tithes 10% of their income may be choosing between eating and not eating. A rich person who tithes 10% may not be sacrificing anything, though their 10% is greater in magnitude. Though the "rules" state 10% is the correct amount to tithe, God values the former rather than the latter. Thus, the rule does not apply universally, it is the principle of sacrifice behind the rule that is of value.

LUKE 21 (ESV)

The Widow’s Offering

¹Jesus looked up and saw the rich putting their gifts into the offering box, ²and he saw a poor widow put in two small copper coins. ³And he said, "Truly, I tell you, this poor widow has put in more than all of them. ⁴For they all contributed out of their abundance, but she out of her poverty put in all she had to live on."

MATTHEW 23 (NLT)

²³ “What sorrow awaits you teachers of religious law and you Pharisees. Hypocrites! For you are careful to tithe even the tiniest income from your herb gardens, but you ignore the more important aspects of the law—justice, mercy, and faith

Indeed, a huge emphasis in the New Testament is not on the law itself, but rather, on the principles behind the law.

Upon hearing this, another member of the fellowship spoke up, and said something that strongly challenged and convicted me. They began by agreeing that they too felt that principle was the emphasis of the message. However, these principles are way too huge for us to tackle on our own. Indeed, for this reason it is key that we strive to be in constant communion with God.

For me, this was a much needed reminder. It is such a simple and basic principle of living by faith - to live by the guidance of the Spirit, God's counsellor to man. Yet how often had I used my deductive skills to justify actions. More importantly, how often do I ask God what he wants me to do in a particular situation?

1 CORINTHIANS 3 (ESV)

¹⁸Let no one deceive himself. If anyone among you thinks that he is wise in this age, let him become a fool that he may become wise. ¹⁹For the wisdom of this world is folly with God. For it is written, "He catches the wise in their craftiness," ²⁰and again, "The Lord knows the thoughts of the wise, that they are futile." ²¹So let no one boast in men.

JOHN 14 (ESV)

²⁵"These things I have spoken to you while I am still with you. ²⁶But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, he will teach you all things and bring to your remembrance all that I have said to you."

PROVERBS 3 (ESV)

⁵Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
and do not lean on your own understanding.
⁶In all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make straight your paths.

It's easy to forget, but oh so important. We live by principle, but that principle comes from the knowledge of God. In order to live righteously, we must seek God first and remember that not living by the law does not mean living by our own understanding.

The vineyard of Heaven

This Sunday I visited my alma mater, and attended my local church in that city. As it turned out, there was a special speaker - an ex-con who had drifted in and out of trouble and hedonism for much of his life until finding Christ through the loving encouragement of a prison volunteer. It was a powerful story of salvation and transformation.

Drawing from his own story, he then went on to describe the Parable of the Vineyard Workers:

MATTHEW 20 (NLT)

“For the Kingdom of Heaven is like the landowner who went out early one morning to hire workers for his vineyard. ² He agreed to pay the normal daily wage and sent them out to work.

³ “At nine o’clock in the morning he was passing through the marketplace and saw some people standing around doing nothing. ⁴ So he hired them, telling them he would pay them whatever was right at the end of the day. ⁵ So they went to work in the vineyard. At noon and again at three o’clock he did the same thing.

⁶ “At five o’clock that afternoon he was in town again and saw some more people standing around. He asked them, ‘Why haven’t you been working today?’

⁷ “They replied, ‘Because no one hired us.’

“The landowner told them, ‘Then go out and join the others in my vineyard.’

⁸ “That evening he told the foreman to call the workers in and pay them, beginning with the last workers first. ⁹ When those hired at five o’clock were paid, each received a full day’s wage. ¹⁰ When those hired first came to get their pay, they assumed they would receive more. But they, too, were paid a day’s wage. ¹¹ When they received their pay, they protested to the owner, ¹² ‘Those people worked only one hour, and yet you’ve paid them just as much as you paid us who worked all day in the scorching heat.’

¹³ “He answered one of them, ‘Friend, I haven’t been unfair! Didn’t you agree to work all day for the usual wage? ¹⁴ Take your money and go. I wanted to pay this last worker the same as you. ¹⁵ Is it against the law for me to do what I want with my money? Should you be jealous because I am kind to others?’

¹⁶ “So those who are last now will be first then, and those who are first will be last.”

And the speaker went on to say: "I know that when I die, I will meet my Creator, and he will welcome me. Even though sometimes I made him sad, and even though one time in my life things got so bad that his Son wept for me, he will welcome me and say, 'Come on in, there's some people I think you'd like to meet, and they'd like to meet you too.' I believe that I will receive the full reward, even though I came to faith late in my life."

That made sense. Surely it seemed reasonable that the fullness of salvation belongs to any who accept Christ, regardless of when they find him. The connection had been drawn, and the meaning of the parable suddenly became clear.

Yet, faced with this parable in the past, I had indeed struggled with the unfairness of treating those who had toiled away for the whole day and those who had only worked for a few hours the same. I had to rationalize this by telling myself that it was the farmer's (God's) generosity that paid the last men well rather than unfairness that caused the first men to be paid little. Indeed, this is the case, but it still felt somewhat unfair.

This only goes to expose my own pettiness... but more than that, it shows how we can misinterpret Christ's teachings. The parables were set in familiar terms to make them comprehensible to those with open hearts, but they were also set in these terms to confound those who did not have hearts to listen.

MATTHEW 13 (ESV)

¹⁰Then the disciples came and said to him, "Why do you speak to them in parables?" ¹¹And he answered them, "To you it has been given to know the secrets of the kingdom of heaven, but to them it has not been given. ¹²For to the one who has, more will be given, and he will have an abundance, but from the one who has not, even what he has will be taken away. ¹³This is why I speak to them in parables, because seeing they do not see, and hearing they do not hear, nor do they understand. ¹⁴Indeed, in their case the prophecy of Isaiah is fulfilled that says:

"'You will indeed hear but never understand,
and you will indeed see but never perceive.
¹⁵For this people’s heart has grown dull,
and with their ears they can barely hear,
and their eyes they have closed,
lest they should see with their eyes
and hear with their ears
and understand with their heart
and turn, and I would heal them.'

¹⁶But blessed are your eyes, for they see, and your ears, for they hear. ¹⁷For truly, I say to you, many prophets and righteous people longed to see what you see, and did not see it, and to hear what you hear, and did not hear it.

What I had done was listen to Jesus' parable with the ears of this world. I had applied this world's standards and this world's meanings to it. In doing so, I had missed the point and corrupted the message. Jesus' message was not about wages or vineyards, but about salvation and grace. Viewed with these eyes, the Parable of the Vineyard Workers provides a powerful lesson about the nature of God, one that is indeed fair and loving.

Politics of Love

Every Sunday, my church prays for a particular country of the world. I think this is a great idea because I believe in the power of prayer, and I like that our church has chosen to pay attention to the world beyond our own borders.

After weeks of praying for countries in Africa and the Middle East, this week's prayer was for the United States of America, and in particular for the upcoming election. It was a delicate prayer asking that God would provide the people of America the wisdom to weigh the issues at hand and also to seek God first. However, the prayer also asked that Americans would pay special attention to issues regarding the "sanctity of human life", the "institution of traditional marriage", and "the cause of religious liberty". This concerned me, but let me explain why.

As a Christian, I know where the Bible stands on issues of marriage and abortion, and I understand that these are relevant issues. God is the author of both marriage and life, and we ought not to damage either.

PSALM 139 (ESV)

¹³For you formed my inward parts;
you knitted me together in my mother’s womb.
¹⁴I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works;
my soul knows it very well.
¹⁵ My frame was not hidden from you,when I was being made in secret,
intricately woven in the depths of the earth.
¹⁶Your eyes saw my unformed substance;in your book were written, every one of them,
the days that were formed for me,
when as yet there was none of them.

EPHESIANS 5 (ESV)

³¹"Therefore a man shall leave his father and mother and hold fast to his wife, and the two shall become one flesh."

But however relevant these issues are, they are not the key issues. Too often, Christians confuse their Christian values with their cultural values. They believe that because conservative politicians are the only ones who land on their side of issues like marriage and abortion, that these politicians represent them (and are the only ones who can represent them). This is false.

Christian values are not conservative values. Jesus tells us that above all, we must love one another. Conservative values are capitalistic, keep-what-you-earn, every-man-for-himself values. Christian values are gentle, giving values of social fairness.

While the Christian concept of marriage cannot and should not change, we must understand that there there exists marriage as a religious institution and also marriage as a social, legal, and secular institution. It does not promote the Good News to antagonize our neighbours over the use of a word.

2 TIMOTHY 2 (NLT)

²³ Again I say, don’t get involved in foolish, ignorant arguments that only start fights. ²⁴ A servant of the Lord must not quarrel but must be kind to everyone, be able to teach, and be patient with difficult people. ²⁵ Gently instruct those who oppose the truth. Perhaps God will change those people’s hearts, and they will learn the truth. ²⁶ Then they will come to their senses and escape from the devil’s trap. For they have been held captive by him to do whatever he wants.

Furthermore, governments deal with issues on a national or even global scale. Certainly issues of abortion are relevant, and Christians ought not to participate in having one. But even more important are issues of war, disease,and poverty - being diplomatic and generous in our policy. Indeed, I do believe it is more important to elect a government who will work tirelessly to save the lives of those already grown than one who will outlaw abortion but damn innumerable others to conflict and strife or that will leave the poor and starving to suffer their own fate (as conservatives are often keen to do).

It is of my personal opinion that often conservative politicians do not represent the political policy that Christians should endorse. Like the Pharisees, they make mountains over issues of tradition and rules while ignoring the principles of love and responsibility on which those traditions were first established.

MATTHEW 23 (NLT)

²³ “What sorrow awaits you teachers of religious law and you Pharisees. Hypocrites! For you are careful to tithe even the tiniest income from your herb gardens, but you ignore the more important aspects of the law—justice, mercy, and faith. You should tithe, yes, but do not neglect the more important things. ²⁴ Blind guides! You strain your water so you won’t accidentally swallow a gnat, but you swallow a camel!

GALATIANS 5 (NLT)

⁵ But we who live by the Spirit eagerly wait to receive by faith the righteousness God has promised to us. ⁶ For when we place our faith in Christ Jesus, there is no benefit in being circumcised or being uncircumcised. What is important is faith expressing itself in love.

Do not make politics a single-issue race or assume that conservative means that a candidate will represent Christian values best. Instead, test each politician and their policies with the character of God - justice, mercy, and faith.

The ant and the grasshopper

Today, my pastor ended his service with a particularly meaningful anecdote (as pastors often try to do). It went like this:

A parent received a call from their child's school teacher. The teacher said, "I though I should call you about your child. In all my years of teaching I have never had a child do anything quite like this, so I thought that I should let you know." Of course, this is a rather foreboding introduction. The teacher continued, "Every year I use a particular creative writing exercise. I tell the class the story of the ant and the grasshopper. In this story, the ant works all year long collecting food for the winter and storing it. Meanwhile, the grasshopper frolics around and doesn't do any work. When the winter comes, the grasshopper goes hungry, and he begs the ant to share some of his stored food."

"At this point, I usually ask the class to write the ending of the story."

"Your son raised his hand and asked, 'Can we draw a picture instead?' I responded, 'Yes, you can also draw a picture, but first you need to write down an ending for the story.' Now let me tell you, most children write the ending that the ant ends up sharing his food with the grasshopper and they both survive. A few children usually write the ending that the ant says, 'Sorry, you should have worked harder during the year, I only have enough food for myself' and the ant lives and the grasshopper dies... But your son wrote an ending where the ant gave all his food to the grasshopper. The grasshopper lived, and the ant died, and at the bottom of the page were drawn three crosses."

Now my first reaction when my pastor got to the part where the ant had given all his food away was, "This is stupid. Now the ant is going to die. Is this supposed to be a story of how Christians should act? Giving up everything for people who don't deserve it?" But after he had described the crosses on the bottom, I was moved by a twinge of emotion. The ant was Jesus Christ, and he had given up his life and his hard work for another who had done nothing.

It quelled in me an interesting dilemma. There was one day, where I had been reading an online discussion board and someone had written a comment along the lines of, "Your Jesus is not so great. Sure he died on a cross, but lots of people have died more horrible deaths than that. Why would such a death make him special enough to be God?" Now certainly, Jesus is not God because he died; but rather he could die for us because he was God. And yet, we do herald Jesus' death as a great injustice, a great sacrifice that only God could have made.

And so I began to try to rationalize this. Well it is true that many people die more horrible and tortuous deaths than even being hung on a cross. People can be tortured, beaten, maimed, decapitated, burned, bitten, drowned, and subjected to all sorts of other monstrous treatment. But Jesus had done nothing to deserve his death - he was innocent. Yet certainly not everyone who is tortured or treated unjustly deserves it - in fact, most are the victims of oppression, prejudice, and evil. They did nothing in particular to bring about their fate, so then why is Jesus so different? Now internally, Jesus' actions and their implications maintained the solidity of my faith, and yet this question remained filed at the back of my mind for further exploration.

Then came along the anecdote about the ant and the grasshopper, and it was as if someone had opened up a door in my mind. It was not just that Jesus had done nothing to deserve his death, but rather he had done so much good on top of that. He was blameless: he faced down temptation, thought no evil, did no evil, healed the sick, blessed the infirm, and lifted up the downtrodden. In spite of this he was tortured and hung on a cross by his hands and feet to die. And he died, not for himself, not for a friend, not for a group of people or an ideal, but for the people of the world. We, the people, fully deserved our fate. We sin, we fight, we deny God. In fact, oftentimes we laugh in the face of righteousness as we continue to do evil. And yet Jesus Christ, God incarnate, one greater than any of us, more powerful than any of us, more righteous than any of us; he died, and we were allowed to live.

That is what made the sacrifice great. It was not the magnitude of the torture. It was not the fact that he was undeserving of punishment. It was the cause - that in fact he did not need to die, but rather he chose to come and live among us, chose to teach us and guide us, and chose to die for us though we had no right to ask him to. Our souls were begging for the food that he had stored up for the winter, clamouring for him to help us bridge the spiritual disconnect, and he did. That is why our God is an awesome God. That is why he is worthy of praise.

Stumbling in the light

This morning I was feeling a little bit spiritually isolated, having recently tripped over a common stumbling block in my life. In spite of this initially muted state of mind, the service really hit home for me today. Coincidence? Maybe not. The sermon was given by my favourite English pastor, Quang Nguyen, who was speaking on Dealing with the Demonic.

The passage he was speaking on was Mark 5:1-20, where Jesus drives a legion of demons out of a man into a flock of pigs. He opened with a discussion of how these days, many people reject the idea of Satan (even some professed Christian groups). These people view Satan in the Bible as a representation of mankind's sinful nature and that believing in Satan as a living entity is grounds for absolving ourselves of blame for our wrongdoings.

Yet the demons in this story are not just an analogy for sinful nature. They had a genuine manifestation. Quang cited C.S. Lewis as describing the two most dangerous views about the demonic:

1. That demonic powers do not exist at all (the materialist)
2. That demonic powers do exist, and are responsible for everything (the magician)

Indeed, we must guard ourselves from seeing "demons around every corner" so to speak. But I have heard too many stories of spiritual attack from people in whom I trust to disbelieve its authenticity (usually occurring on the front lines of evangelical mission-work).

While most people have not experienced demon possession, Quang went on to outline five ways other ways that Satan attacks:

1. Temptation
2. Deception / Lies
3. Accusation
4. Disunity / Argument
5. Physical Suffering

After the first four, I was a little bit worried that Quang was going the route that he had described in the beginning (attributing Satan solely towards attitudes and temptation), but was somewhat relieved that he did at least briefly acknowledge that such influences can at times have physical manifestations.

However, physical suffering was not the topic that I was most interested in. It was the first three attacks that really found a foothold in my heart this morning. They essentially represent a twofold attack. First, Satan tempts and deceives us. He gradually goads us into doing what we know is wrong through soothing temptation: "Who's going to know?" "You deserve this." "It's okay, everybody does it." Once we fall for the temptation, then the strategy is reversed as Satan turns to accusation: "How could you sin again?" "God doesn't care about you, you're already too far gone!" Indeed, this is a precise series of events that plays out in my life time and time again, and the very state of mind that I had walked through the doors this morning with was very similar.

Guilt of this kind is something that I have at many times in my life struggled with: the desire to live a righteous life contrasted with continual failure. Yet it is this continual failure that fuels our need for salvation, and demonstrates God's great love for us in his forgiveness. One time, at least a year ago, when I was struggling with this very problem, my brother offered a wise perspective: A relationship like God is like a relationship with a spouse. You may do something wrong, and hurt your spouse once in awhile... but your spouse does not hate you or forsake you because the general character of your relationship is one of love. In the way that marriage is more than just counting the strikes against your spouse, God's love is not invalidated by our stumbles even after we have accepted Jesus as our Lord and Saviour.

Quang offered this caveat, however: "Divine sovereignty does not negate human responsibility." Just because Satan exists and tempts us does not mean we are not responsible for our actions. Indeed, we need to actively struggle. While Satan certainly has sway in this world, we have been provided with prayer as a means of combatting temptation and Satan's influence. Oftentimes, this is likely where my stumbles begin: while I recognize the error in my actions as I am pushed towards temptation, I fail to call out to God for help, and on my own, I am overcome.

The sermon's conclusion expressed two different ways we can respond to God's power over Satan: We can recognize his power and reject it out of fear, or we can accept it and be transformed. Indeed, for salvation in Christ, more is needed than merely faith that Christ (for, as the Bible states, even demons have faith in the existence of Christ) but also and acceptance of his gift of forgiveness and acceptance of his Lordship.

At the very end, Quang asked the congregation to keep our pastors in our prayers. He described how pastors often face the brunt of spiritual attack, not because they are more important than other Christians, but because they provide the most visible face of the Church. When Satan causes pastors and leaders to stumble, then the outside perception of the Church is damaged leaving others with sentiments like, "Told you so - they're all hypocrites." He provided an amusing illustration, which I have more or less duplicated below:

A pastor, on their own (top), may be able to defend against some spiritual attacks, and yet may be easily taken unawares and blindsided. Two people together (middle) praying for a pastor, may exert yet further spiritual support. But if an entire congregation (bottom) were to pray sincerely, then a leader should be well protected against attack.

At the end of the service, the worship band played the response song Jesus Paid It All. At this point, I felt pretty moved, and I had this awkward feeling of tears at the back of my eyes (which I held back, of course). But I was really touched by the words in the song of the Saviour speaking (to you, me, to his people): "Thy strength is indeed small," and the crimson stain of sin being washed white again.

JESUS PAID IT ALL
Elvina M. Hall, 1865

I hear the Savior say,
“Thy strength indeed is small;
Child of weakness, watch and pray,
Find in Me thine all in all.”

Jesus paid it all,
All to Him I owe;
Sin had left a crimson stain,
He washed it white as snow.

For nothing good have I
Whereby Thy grace to claim,
I’ll wash my garments white
In the blood of Calv’ry’s Lamb.

And now complete in Him
My robe His righteousness,
Close sheltered ’neath His side,
I am divinely blest.

Lord, now indeed I find
Thy power and Thine alone,
Can change the leper’s spots
And melt the heart of stone.

When from my dying bed
My ransomed soul shall rise,
“Jesus died my soul to save,”
Shall rend the vaulted skies.

And when before the throne
I stand in Him complete,
I’ll lay my trophies down
All down at Jesus’ feet.

Easy to preach; difficult to practice

How can I now allow this man
To hold dominion over me?
This desperate man whom I have hunted
He gave me my life. He gave me freedom.
I should have perished by his hand
It was his right.
It was my right to die as well
Instead I live... but live in hell.

These words are sung by Javert in Les Misèrables, a police officer who had spent much of his life on a vengeful quest to bring a criminal who had escaped him many years earlier to justice only to find too late the error of his unforgiving quest.

Judgement and anger are two negative reactions that I struggle with on a daily basis. Forgiving in the absence of apology, for me, is difficult. Forgetting is nearly impossible. One chance encounter can often ruin my entire day, and subsequent days when the encounter finds its way once again into my recollection.

Today, for instance, a friend and I walked to Queen’s Park subway station. There was a line at the turnstiles so I lined up with her. When she had just passed through the turnstiles, a man (and someone behind him) appeared to be edging their way into the vertical line diagonally. I rushed ahead and swiped my pass, hearing the man trying to bud in swear under his breath: “Ugh, that guy just budded me.”

On the way down to the subway platform, my friend and I took the stairs, and the man took the adjacent escalator. On his way past me, he slammed his hand down on the rubber escalator railing to make a loud noise. This only served to further aggravate me, since I knew it was him who was clearly trying to bud into line. So his offences included not only trying to bud in but also thinking he had the right of way and belligerently being unable to keep his anger to himself.

Now once we get to the subway platform, my friend and I take separate routes; she goes north and I go south. So sitting by myself I had plenty of time to stew. In my head I have a tendency to replay scenarios over and over imagining how things might have turned out if I had reacted to the offense (these scenarios usually tend to get more angry and outlandish as I continue to imagine) and to work myself into a state of very high tension. Still, while I am reluctant to let go of the anger, I know intrinsically that these responses are not optimal. Not only are they not good for my psychological and physical well being, but they are also contrary to God’s direction for our lives.

MATTHEW 5 (NIV)

Love for Enemies
43"You have heard that it was said, 'Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.' 44But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, 45that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. 46If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? 47And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? 48Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.

And so God calls on us to love not only those who are kind to us, but those who are not. Still this is very difficult, especially for me, as I often give into anger against thoughtless strangers quickly. Then I began to doubt: we are called to love those who offend us and who are unrepentant. Yet God, in his infinite mercy, still does not forgive those who do not believe or seek forgiveness.

Of course the answer to this came to me as quickly as the rebellious thought appeared. God has in him the authority to judge because he is just and blameless. In fact, today during lunchtime fellowship the idea was brought up that God must be just. As such, the sacrifice of Jesus’ life was required for our atonement – we as sinners could not simply be pardoned. We, as sinners, though forgiven are imperfect and unworthy. The role of judge is not ours to take upon ourselves.

JOHN 8 (NIV)

7When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, "If any one of you is without sin, let him be the first to throw a stone at her." 8Again he stooped down and wrote on the ground.

9At this, those who heard began to go away one at a time, the older ones first, until only Jesus was left, with the woman still standing there. 10Jesus straightened up and asked her, "Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?"

11"No one, sir," she said.

"Then neither do I condemn you," Jesus declared. "Go now and leave your life of sin."

Despite knowing these things in my head, I still lacked the will or the faith to put them into practice. The blood was still pumping through my veins. And so, I closed my eyes, and I recited the Lord’s prayer, with a bit of a revision…

MATTHEW 6 (NIV)

9b" 'Our Father in heaven,
hallowed be your name,
10your kingdom come,
your will be done
on earth as it is in heaven.
11Give us today our daily bread.
12Forgive us our debts,
[and help us too to forgive] our debtors.
13And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from the evil one.'

And as I recited this over again and again, I felt my pulse slow down. Still, I knew that my bitterness would not be so easily tempered. So I tried to picture the stranger who had offended me, this time without feelings of anger. I tried instead to imagine how I might have responded to the situation with the opposite approach, in a gentle way that would make it difficult for the other party to remain incensed. In this way, I calmed myself by envisioning a proper Christian approach to a challenging situation.

Then in popped into my head another instance today of an offense by a stranger. Still, not to be irked after making this much progress, I again tried to approach this situation from the other cheek, imagining a gentle and loving response.

In a way, these imaginings were much like a game. It is unlikely that I would naturally think of responding in these ways given a situation like this, and even more unlikely that I would be able to put it into practice. But by playing this game, I look to change my way of thinking so that one day this may be more than a game… completely usurping my quick and fiery temper.

The question then is, who am I? Certainly, I continue to answer many situations with unrighteous responses: negativity, anger, or scorn. But through God’s love I can call upon his power to walk towards being the kind of person that I desire to be – a Christ-like kind of person… if I am truly willing. It is that kind of submission that will be most critical, and will continue to challenge me and my rebellious selfishness.

Sowing for a Harvest

Worship Reflections

This weekend my church had a "Focus on Africa", with the band Krystaal leading worship. Krystaal is a group whose core is composed of men who escaped oppression in Congo and made it to Canada after a gruelling time in refugee camps in Kenya.

I really did appreciate the unique style that African Americans bring to Christian worship. The gospel style of music often associated with black churches and African American Christians carries with it a vibrancy and liveliness that is extremely warm and unrestrained. Participating in worship led by Krystaal was a great experience, and they are extremely blessed with wonderful voices.

While attending St. James Anglican in Kingston I developed an appreciation for traditional worship including an organ and proper choir. The beautiful harmonies reflect the affluent culture that cultivated classical music and extraordinary technical skill. Other Christian music draws on other social cultures, such as contemporary Western culture or African culture. All can be heartfelt, and this eclecticism helps to make worship something universal that brothers and sisters in Christ can all participate in in a manner most relevant and touching to themselves.


Sermon Reflections

Today's sermon was from Mark Chapter 4. Below is the text from the ESV version:

The Parable of the Sower

4:1 Again he began to teach beside the sea. And a very large crowd gathered about him, so that he got into a boat and sat in it on the sea, and the whole crowd was beside the sea on the land. 2 And he was teaching them many things in parables, and in his teaching he said to them: 3 “Listen! A sower went out to sow. 4 And as he sowed, some seed fell along the path, and the birds came and devoured it. 5 Other seed fell on rocky ground, where it did not have much soil, and immediately it sprang up, since it had no depth of soil. 6 And when the sun rose, it was scorched, and since it had no root, it withered away. 7 Other seed fell among thorns, and the thorns grew up and choked it, and it yielded no grain. 8 And other seeds fell into good soil and produced grain, growing up and increasing and yielding thirtyfold and sixtyfold and a hundredfold.” 9 And he said, “He who has ears to hear, let him hear.”

The Purpose of the Parables

10 And when he was alone, those around him with the twelve asked him about the parables. 11 And he said to them, “To you has been given the secret of the kingdom of God, but for those outside everything is in parables, 12 so that

“they may indeed see but not perceive,
and may indeed hear but not understand,
lest they should turn and be forgiven.”

13 And he said to them, “Do you not understand this parable? How then will you understand all the parables? 14 The sower sows the word. 15 And these are the ones along the path, where the word is sown: when they hear, Satan immediately comes and takes away the word that is sown in them. 16 And these are the ones sown on rocky ground: the ones who, when they hear the word, immediately receive it with joy. 17 And they have no root in themselves, but endure for a while; then, when tribulation or persecution arises on account of the word, immediately they fall away. [1] 18 And others are the ones sown among thorns. They are those who hear the word, 19 but the cares of the world and the deceitfulness of riches and the desires for other things enter in and choke the word, and it proves unfruitful. 20 But those that were sown on the good soil are the ones who hear the word and accept it and bear fruit, thirtyfold and sixtyfold and a hundredfold."

The pastor touched on a number of major points. Firstly, in all these cases, the seed was the same (the Word). Thus the problem is not the seed, though often people will criticize the Bible. Secondly, in all these cases, the sower is the same. Thus the problem is not the sower, though often people will criticize Christians.

The problem is the soil: our tendency to turn away from God's will. We do not know the condition of a person's heart, only God knows this. Our job is to sow, to spread the seed and trust in God for the results. We should not be worrying about the "quality of the soil", but simply spread the seed earnestly and lovingly.

So then, what are the things that I learned from this sermon? Firstly, there is the issue of the quality of the soil. I have heard many criticisms of the church because of the kinds of people that attend. Of course there are many sincere Christians, but there are also those who come for social or recreational reasons. Some people feel this is an affront - that the church is lessened by the acceptance of these kinds of attendees. However, so long as they do not cause the members of the church to stumble, this is actually a great thing. It is the church's calling to draw people into its folds. Not all people who come will be sincere and not all will be receptive, but the church should be a beacon to bring all sorts of people through its doors so that many can be exposed to the Word. Of course, not all will be "good soil" that will bear fruit, but it is not the quality of the soil is God's concern, ours is to sow.

Secondly, I learned about myself. Jesus had outlined all sorts of responses to the gospel in this parable, and while I had heard it many times, they had never stuck out to me more than "good soil" and "bad soil" i.e. "accept" or "reject." But today, hearing it again, the types of soil began to take on meaning for me.

For instance, I began to see myself in the seed that grew up in thorny soil. Obviously, as Christians we all strive to be "good soil". However, often I do feel held back out of fear (e.g. from sharing, or committing to tasks such as travelling to developing nations or short-term missions). I do get bogged down with the concerns of life, using schoolwork (or worse: TV, games, Facebook) as an excuse for not taking quiet time to study scripture or pray. I do struggle with desires such as wealth, etc. It is equally true that God has given us many and diverse gifts, and that not all are suited for every role in the church, but rather we are parts of a greater body. But this parable does demand that I (perhaps we?) reflect on whether we are acting as "good soil", doing God's work and being fruitful, or are being choked by the "thorns" and the matters of this world.

Lastly, I learned about sharing. By this time I have had experiences where friends of mine have been seeking, or have even come to accept Christ, only to turn away. I often kick myself for these experiences, shouldering blame for not being more supportive and more available. Yet we do not know the condition of people's hearts. There is seed that falls in the rocks, sprouting up quickly, and being extinguished quickly. It is God who works in the hearts of men; we sow the seed as best we can. Now obviously this is an oversimplification - we do have responsibilities for the seed we sow. We do have to be supportive, loving, available, and helpful where needed; working to cultivate the seed. But we are also only a part of God's plan which involves many parts. Thus, we share, as best we can. The Word will not always take root, but we sow for the harvest and must trust in God for the results.

Growing together

I'm starting this blog in order to better facilitate the sharing of my thoughts on spiritual matters.

I have separated out these kinds of reflections into their own space to offer more focus, and also in consideration of those who might be disaffected by the discussion of these things in the open. I realize that many of the people that visit my website are interested in my life and not my spiritual opinions, and I have thus opted to not discourage their readership of my Chronicle by spiritualizing it.

I hope that those who do share in this aspect of my life will appreciate and share in my reflections.